Random Adam

I am thinking of wild sea-horses riding along the undercurrent of a deep emerald sea. I am dreaming of lollipop zebras, match stick fishes and paper plate moon across a stardust field. Aimless, mindless thoughts have been floating thru my mind, in my attempt to stay away from drilling onto false hope.

What can never be, will never be. Save the drama for another manifesto, i just want to be kept alone, curled up in my corner, away from the spotlight of reality and sheltered from the raindrops in my heart.

I like to be a random adam, shifting thru life simplicity without being notice. Anonymous and unknown.

Flirting with Spring

I'm back. Back from the six weeks break in australia. And back to blogshere. Though, i got a feeling my welcome here would only be temporary as the sparkle of blogging have slowly fade away as the year comes to an end. I'm not saying i'm bored, it's just that the interest is no longer here to stay. And i rather not force it.

Many, many things have happen since the last trip. Love have been found and heart have been broken. Memory have been made and scars have been carved. And right now, i just want to reserved myself to me, and not play game with the uncertainty. It kills me, dragged my soul and left me panting for life. So spare me the sorrow and torture and just let me go, cause i don't want to be another zombie lover raging over an overdue love affair.

Everything that we had have seems so real but yet i know its only temporary. Not a fixture in your life, just an additional bonus that you can throw out once you get bored with it. I don't want to be a secondhand backup for you. So take your memory cause i don't need them. I don't want something i can't have. I would like to take a step back before i embarrass myself any further.

I'm not going to swallow in self pity. But is this the only option?