Fallen angel

When does a crush finishes? Is there a grace period to it? And how does one exactly get over a crush? By having another crush for someone else? Argh! It has been more than three weeks now since i was hit and bitten by the crush bug. As anticipated, the first few days was filled with endless goosebumps and fluttering butterflies as i busied myself trying to generate the best first impression ever. Getting ready for work somehow seems like an impossible task to do, and when does matching your boxer to the colour of your shirt matters to anyone before? But it does now as there might be a 0.05 percent chance of you taking it off in a fury of passion over the copier machine, and you won't want to be caught dead in a striking looser-than-jenna-jameson orange pokka dot boxer!

But as the week comes to an end and the reality that he doesn't feel the same way towards you kick in, and you know no matter how cute and sex kitten-like you parade around him doesn't help anymore, you just want to kill yourself. The feeling is worst than waiting on tables at an outdoor wedding in the rain. And over a restless four hour sleep, the only solution that you could come up with is to forget about him and try to move on. Well, logical as it seems, it's harder said than done. The lies i tried to convience myself, the excuse i utter whenever my heart beats faster doesn't help in any way to ease his effect on me. The more i try to erase him from my thoughts the more his presence seems to be haunting my senses. Is there no ending to a crush? Is there life after crush?

But what haunt me the most is not knowing what when wrong?